fainting while hiking on National Day and 100 days of dieting
October 1
National Day Patriotic Day
Today is October 1st in Canada, which means it's China's National Day here. To celebrate, many Chinese students here organized a trip to China Bay (a beach named after China) to watch the sunrise and have a National Day barbecue party. So we all got up at 3 a.m., met up at 4:30 a.m., and set off, arriving at our destination after an hour's drive.
Since I wasn't at home or school, my diet plan was completely messed up today. For example, regarding food, there was no sashimi or salad, just grilled meat. Luckily, I was quick-witted and brought an apple with me, but it was too big, so I gave half to a friend and ate the other half myself. Hiking is very tiring, and everyone sweated a lot, so I gave myself a break when it came to water. Today, I didn't drink sugar-free cola, but instead brought a bottle of mung bean soup with artificial sweetener. It's refreshing, thirst-quenching, and diuretic, so even if I drank a few more sips, I would just excrete it, but it would just add to my weight.
During dinner, we chatted and realized that being away from home made it hard to feel such a strong sense of national pride. Back in China, when people talked about National Day, they only thought of holidays and travel, ignoring the true meaning of the holiday. But here, we all asked the school for leave and celebrated National Day in various ways. Even the girls wore earrings with national flag designs. Many passersby asked where we were from, and we proudly told them we were Chinese, that today was our National Day, and that we were truly proud to be Chinese.
What surprised me today was that I unexpectedly ran into a classmate from junior high on the hiking trip. We hadn't seen each other since graduating from junior high, and the years had passed; we'd both grown up. He's now a grown man, very dashing, a stark contrast to his underdeveloped appearance in junior high. He said I was thinner than in junior high, and I said, "Really? You haven't seen me in high school; you'd be horrified if you did." He asked me what I looked like in high school, how exaggerated I was, and I just smiled and shook my head: "Never mind, I won't rub it in. We just finished eating; let's not waste food."
When I got home that evening, my back ached, my legs cramped, and I had absolutely no energy left to exercise. Hiking is really good for weight loss because it's so tiring. It's a pity there aren't any mountains near my house, otherwise I might consider hiking every day. Not running is already considered lazy. Now I'm going to do some sit-ups, and then I can go to sleep! Haha!
October 4
100 Days of Dieting!
I have to say, today marks my 100th day, and I truly admire my own willpower. This morning I had salmon sashimi, and I couldn't help but reflect on how I've managed to get through these past 100 days. How much more salmon do I need to eat to achieve my goal? How much more hardship do I need to endure to reach my target weight? Although many people have said I'm very thin now, I'm still unhappy because compared to the people in those photos, I'm still just a girl with a barely acceptable figure.
Yezi told me I look a little sickly now, and I don't look as healthy and radiant as I used to be. She advised me to stop dieting, but I didn't listen to her because I'm not just trying to lose weight; I want to be as thin as possible to achieve my ideal figure. I once asked Dajiao what I would look like if I, at 1.62 meters tall, weighed around 70 pounds. Dajiao yelled that I was crazy and said that I might end up like Zhang Shaohan, all skin and bones, so forget it. Maybe I should stop dieting from tomorrow, but I know that deep down I still want to see if there's any possibility of getting even thinner. Maybe that's just human greed.
Actually, 100 days ago, I never thought I could stick to this. Looking back now, I really should thank those who constantly ridiculed me while I was dieting. Without their sarcasm, how could I have had the motivation and backbone to persevere? After school, I go swimming. Now I swim like a fish in water, without feeling tired at all, a world of difference from when I first started swimming.
100 days is a milestone for many newborns, celebrated by their families. It seems to be a significant milestone in their lives. I'm no exception; today I want to do something to properly commemorate my 100 days. In these 100 days, I've rediscovered myself-a different, more confident version of myself. So, what should I do? Perhaps I'll swim an extra 200 meters, to show God my sincerity in losing weight. Maybe God will be so pleased that He'll transform me into the woman with the best figure in the world!
Today's meal was special because school ended early and the school cafeteria wasn't open yet, so there was nowhere to buy salmon sashimi. I frantically searched for anything that could substitute for salmon at home, and finally found dried anchovies in Yezi's room-those tiny silver fish coated in sesame seeds and syrup and then baked. I took a small bag, about 25 grams, and slowly savored it. Thank goodness I had some sugar-free drinks at home, otherwise today's meal would have been a complete waste.
Oh my god, why is it time to run right after I finish eating? I haven't even finished writing my diary yet... Oh well, my life is just like this, following a set routine. It's precisely because of this planning that I've been able to stick to it for 100 days, a full 100 days.
No matter what, there's still a long way to go in losing weight, keep going!!!
October 5
Fainting from dieting?
I was so scared today...
After getting up this morning, I went shopping with Da Jiao. While we were walking, I suddenly felt dizzy and collapsed. Da Jiao was terrified. Apparently, she kept shaking me and frantically pressing on my philtrum until I finally woke up, but I was completely weak. I then drank almost the entire beverage Da Jiao handed me, without even thinking about dieting, because it was obvious to everyone that I had low blood sugar.
Haha, low blood sugar, me?
In my memory, I've never had hypoglycemia, but I've had high blood sugar and high cholesterol for quite some time now. I sat on a bench in the mall for a full half hour before I had the strength to speak. I laughed and said to Big Foot, "I drank a whole bottle of Coke, so forget about losing weight today." Big Foot was so angry when she heard this that she wanted to hit me. She said I was already thinner than her, and asked me what else I wanted, if I would only be happy if I dieted myself to death?
Big Foot is right. I really need to think about this. I weigh 85 pounds now, which is quite slim considering my height and age. I remember chatting with Big Foot online before, and she said she wanted to swap clothes with me. At that time, I thought it was a pipe dream, an unattainable fantasy. But now, I find Big Foot's clothes too big, and Big Foot can't fit into my skirts no matter what. In just three months, my life has changed so much, so fast that I haven't had time to accept this new version of myself. I just realize that I really can transform from a chubby girl.
After resting enough, I felt refreshed and continued shopping with Da Jiao, buying bags and bags of things to take home. Da Jiao insisted on carrying my things the whole way, afraid that I would get tired and "collapse on the street" again, because she would probably really break down if that happened.
But what really upset her was that as soon as I got home, I changed into my swimsuit and dragged her swimming. Now swimming has become a habit of mine; it's an exercise I do every day. She said I hadn't fully recovered yet, so maybe we shouldn't swim today. I said no way! Life is about movement, and losing weight requires even more movement. As long as I live, I'll keep losing weight. As long as I have a breath left, I'll stay here and swim no matter what.
For the next 1000 meters, Da Jiao stayed on the shore the whole time. In her words, she wasn't slacking off because she was lazy, but because she was afraid I would suddenly cramp up, lack oxygen, or faint. If she kept an eye on me, she wouldn't be afraid that something might happen to me in the water and she wouldn't be able to save me in time.
I drank a lot of beverages today, so I need to exercise extra hard to make up for the loss. Therefore, I didn't eat anything other than cola today, and thank goodness I didn't faint again.
It's decided, tomorrow is my last day of dieting.
Keywords: Fainting from dieting